hmm...reel and real life normally does not go together. In reel life, one can imagine having wonderful family, better standard of living, dreaming of meeting a prince charming which like you.And u be thinking so sweet of him to see what others cant see in u. Look at the serial show starring pop idol which told story of rich match with poor. mm...the guys care less of girl look, but attract by the character the moment they together. There come a point where u will feel how the guy go against family, did silly stuff to hold on to a normal looking gal. for me, after watchin a korean show, question ponder upon mi. are u sure beauty is not the first thing people will see no matter how good they are? Is there really human being which are so neutral towards people that not even a little part of their mind are subconsiously see looks as one of the critera for finding the one for them. for mi,i can believe for I feel that everyone love beautiful things... let alone beautiful people. heard a fren say "hmm... stop expecting your... to be handsome,gorgeous, blar blar blar.. take a look at mi, look is nt important. what i look for is the char of the person.." hmm... but i thinking issit people change their perception due to a lesson learn. maybe due to the serveral rejection by the beautiful.doesnt that mean,in nature,u actually not that of impartial. Jux tat u accept the fact and change the perception in finding the one. Jux feeling to prove tat are there rally such thing as pure person with no sense of percecing another party with a slight feeling due to their looks. If u ask mi,I would say. I wont believe. Dun tell mi u dun look in tat area, cos i would think it's u tat was being defeated by the "lOOK", disheartening u to look for such people with such calibre. dun convince mi tat u really sound str, good person with imartial judgement. I wont easily trust wat u say, for i am stubborn. nv have a strong idea tat hit mi back to wat i think of this issue. Senior counsel may needed to fight the point or i will always deem man kind as one with sommon instince. ---> beautiful things are what everyone are looking a ( not sure wat I'm typing jux suddenly have the urge to write some of my thought down. though not in seq)
生命就如地下铁，下一站是起点还是终点？这全靠自己寻找生命中的每一站！活的精彩，快乐，没有遗憾！
scanning thru my hp, found this saved msg. quite meaningful. my life shld be like tat. i wont wan to miss a thing.
Team profile:
Members: a mix of all different personality.
Strength: 1-daring,1-talented,1-confidence,1-hardworking,2-faithful,1-trustworthy,1-steady,
1-calm.
Leader: unstable
Expectation: getting into quarter
Victory is sweet.
Defeat is bitter.
On the 2nd and 3rd of jan this year, i get to taste both of them.
Nv thought i will go so far in this game.
From d start, i depend everything on luck.
having a wu long team,dun think every1 expect much.
"Practise not hard + mix of learning span + 50% ~~commitment by players-->shld = struggling to squeeze into quarter"
but at the end of the First day of competition, it seem tat we r capble of reaching to wat is unattainable for years ~~ the SEMI round.
our team was considered one of the best at that moment.
Morale rises, every1 feel the importance of the nxt 2 matches the nxt day.
once we win all, we r in for the semi...
lose 1 n tats end of it.
3rd jan came.....
first match up, we fighting against the once strong contender.
result---- win,lose,win,win,win..
End of match
happy happy
now.... jux 1 last 1... 1 more n we r up there!
position changes... times up
last match began.
result--- lose,win,win,lose,lose
............................................
LOSE
feeling of unable to breathe well.
never feel such pain before.
a pain which nv able to potray infront of the other.
a pain tat i had to bury deep down which few able to noe.
a pain tat i nv experience before.
wanted to cry but yet not grave enough to let my tears down.
thoughts keep flowing into my mind
if i didnt change the formation, if i thought abit longer, if i advise whether they can,if i jux trust my own decision,if i care less what time restraint i had, if only i have another chance,if if if..................:````(
It's true tat i shld be happy with wat i have presently. the expectation tat is met, reaching what we least expected.
but ever feel tat success is jux infront of you.
jux a little step n u be there. but a wrong move... success will jux vanish out in thin air.
it is so near, so near tat we are able to touch it soon. yet it jux like a glass, break into pieces infront of our naked eye.
every1 is sad unbelieving.hoping it cant be truth.
but its there... 4ever remain unchanged.
sad..... helpless...
a brutal, cunning defeat which i cant forget.a defeat which c others cheering for their rise to the top.
a defeat tat ach my heart dearly.
sorry for those understand it n noe my state.
no one is at fault. the only fault i think of is mi.
a wrong move? a wrong decision?
i'm trying to avoid it now. too much thinking = defending myself n pushing blames to others.
maybe gt to calm dwn 1st.
BUT
a big lesson learn, w so much to sacrifice.
i will remember this day n nv to do the same mistake again.
time will heal one pain n weaken the memories of the important lessons in life.
i hope i wont be the one tat forget one of the biggest lesson i learn this year.
hmm.... long never read blog le. feeling bored n stressed about everything in school. srtudies n commitment... argh... jux hate it. dunno y.. maybe jux dun like having responsibilty tied to me--- i tired of communicating with pp to persuade them to join the team n to coordinate everything. though having someone to help, i would feel tat i'm not makeing the effort to do wat i shld do if keep asking them to help. but if do everything as i want, i would feel tat ai ya..too self oriented and nv consider other opinon. argh... wat shld i do. always confused between work as a team n pushing responsibilty with no self opinon especially i'm being assign to coordinate the team. hmm... is it wat others like me facing or actually we do wat we feel right.. seek advice from others at appropriate time. Oooooo...@_@. let alone this, i still have studies to care. a usual slacker like me is getting real scare. everyone ard me are studying studying n studying. I'm trying.... i feel yet my heart n mind is restless now. no matter how many assignments and revision waiting for me, i jux cant move mentally. like a half-dead fish floating on the sea. hmm....complain finish... stop here at the moment